I know I am not the only person to look back at my life and wish I were still the same person. I miss some of the things about the younger me.
Before I was eighteen I started working at a job I absolutely loved! I made some amazing friend who quickly became like family. I loved every single moment of being there. I looked toward to getting ready for work each day, I couldn’t wait to get there! Who knew you could actually have a job you Love?
I worked in sales at a call center. I was there for almost 6 years. I had gotten promoted and was facing another bigger promotion. I felt very loved and needed there. Working there allowed me to do many things in life and I learned so much about myself. I was GREAT at what I did and that feeling is unforgettable.
I bought a house while working there. Best feeling ever. At the time I only had one child. She was five.once she started first grade I switched to the day shift at work to have more time with her. Things were great.
Then the company I worked for announced they were closing their doors, shutting down and we would all be without jobs. (Might I mention there were around 400 employees). This turned my world upside down! One would think that this type of thing couldn’t be as traumatizing as it was. I had no idea what to do.
During the next few months after losing my job.(felt like the only thing I knew). Things went downhill from there. I lost amazing friends, the relationship I was in failed terribly, and I ended up losing my house. These days still haunt my memories.
The best thing that happened out of all of this is I met my now Husband. We have since had two amazing little boys and I have learned many more things about myself that I wouldn’t have known if all these crappy things didn’t happen. My three children are My entire life. They give me the most joy you can possible give. Not to mention my Husband is the single best thing to have ever happen to me besides my kids. He is my strength and I love him more and more every day. I would truly be lost without him.
What I’m saying is, just because everything you knew is gone doesn’t mean you won’t find something new, better and for the best. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and as I look back I realize what happened to me throughout the years has led me right where I’m suppose to be.
So next time you are thinking back to “what was” stop and think about all that is. We wouldn’t all be where we are if we never went through hard times and we wouldn’t be able to truly appreciate what is good if we never had the bad. I’ve lost myself a time or two trying to figure it out, but I’m here and I still have all the same traits about myself I love plus even more! Appreciate what you have. Love with all you’ve got. Most importantly love who you are!
It’s okay To miss “What was” sometimes. Just love what is even more!